Tuesday, February 14, 2012

BREAKING THROUGH DEPRESSION


As many of you know I have been in a depression.  It has been difficult for me to push away the dark clouds that have been buffering my senses.  Actually, I call it a fog, but dark clouds works, too!

I have been unable to write.  My muse (voices/characters) are silent.  And to top it all off, I really don't care that I am not writing.

I am of the mind that if I can write, I might be able to break free of the depression.  So, I decided to write about depression.  I have written a couple of unsuccessful attempts at poetry.  Finally, after advice from a writer/poet friend to use imagery, I was able to capture my feelings on paper (or as in my case on the screen).



DEPRESSION
by Rita L. Smith

Like a vampire
You suck the life out of me.
Like a vampire
You take away the sun and bring only darkness.
Like a vampire
You left me drained, devoid of life.
Like vampire
You will not release me to a new and better life
Like a vampire
I strike you through the heart,
And now I am free again.




Friday, January 6, 2012


Trick or Treat
by Rita L. Smith

Meow.  I heard a cat from somewhere within my house.  The problem was I didn’t have any cats.  I was sure I must’ve been mistaken, when the sound got closer.  So, close in fact, that I could hear the cat purring.
Something brushed against my leg and I jumped in spite of myself.  The cat stood looking at me and I could swear it was laughing at me, too.  It was a mangy looking creature with scraggly brownish fur.  One ear had a piece missing from it.  And those amber eyes…  I swear I had seen those eyes before.

“Charlie?” I asked the cat.  I was being ridiculous, but I couldn’t get past the thought that the cat looked like my husband.

“Meow.”

“Charlie is that you?”

“Meow.”

“If you are Charlie, you had better change into a human again and explain yourself.”

Laughter peeled from behind me.  I spun around to see Charlie and my daughter.

“I told you Dad that Mom would think that cat was you.”

“Haha,” I said.  “Where in the world did you find a cat that looks so much like you?”

“We didn’t,” Charlie said. “ It found us and I knew that I had to bring him home.”

“Without consulting me?” I knew I sounded hysterical at this point, but I couldn’t help myself.  I was embarrassed that I’d actually thought the cat was human.  And angry that my family knew that I would be that gullible.

“Honey, calm down,” Charlie said.

“Yah, Mom, even I thought it was Dad at first.  They look so much alike,” Jasmine said.

“Did you really?”

Jasmine began to nod, but cut it off in mid nod.  Her eyes widened.  I looked a Charlie and he seemed to be having the same reaction.  I turned to look at whatever they were seeing. 

Something was happening to the cat.  It seemed to be shimmering and it was getting bigger.  It’s shape begin to change.  In a matter of minutes a naked man lay on the floor. 

“Fetch him a blanket,” I shouted.

“Who are you?” Charlie asked as Jasmine ran to grab a blanket from the back of the couch. 

When she returned with the afghan, I said, “Jas, something without holes.”

“Oh,” Jasmine said looking at the afghan as if it were a foreign object.  She returned to the couch and grabbed the quilt.

“Here you go,” Jasmine said as she handed it to the man.  The man could have been my husband’s double.
“My husband asked you a question, who are you?” I asked.

“Don’t you recognize me?”

“You look like Charlie, but who are you?” I demanded.

“I am Charlie, hon.”

“No, Charlie is standing next to me.  You are only someone who looks like him.”

“My dear, sweet wife, I am your husband.”

“Charlie, what’s this kook talking about?”

“I have no idea,” Charlie said.

“Ask him if he knows your name, dear?” the cat said.

I looked at Charlie and waited for him to say my name. 

“Opal, your name is Opal, dear,” the man who I thought was Charlie said.

“Charlie would never call me that,” I said.  I could feel myself nearing hysteria again.

“Why wouldn’t I that’s your name,” the imposter said.

Jasmine and I moved away from both of the men.  I asked the cat, “What is my name?”

“Your name is Dee,” he said. “But I call you Diddlebug.”

“Charlie,” I said, but it sounded like a question even to my ear.

“Yes, dear I am the man you married in that shotgun wedding all of those years ago.”

I ran to the man I now knew as my husband.  “Oh, Charlie.  I knew it was you from the beginning.”

“Who is this then?” Jasmine said.

“He’s a warlock, I would imagine,” Charlie said.  “He turned me into a cat and then changed himself to look like me.”

“So, he really doesn’t look like you?” I said.

“No,” Charlie said, shaking his head as he did.

“Get out of my house before I turn you into a mosquito!” I shouted.

That made everyone laugh, except the warlock.  I think he realized that there was more to me than anyone realized.  The warlock headed for the door, before I could say the magic words.


Please remember that this story is copyrighted by me, so don't reprint it.  I will be putting a book together with my flash fiction in it.  Also, I have Flashes From My Mind and More Flashes From My Mind available on Amazon.  More Flashes From My Mind is available on Kindle for $2.99.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Into Hell



Into Hell
by Rita L. Smith


I slipped through the hole in the wall only to find myself blinded.  Okay, I really wasn’t blind, but there was no light in the room at all.  I turned back to the room I’d just left and nothing.  I felt the wall, but there was no hole.  Strange, I must have moved further than I thought.  I moved along the wall with my hands touching it where I felt the hole should be.

I hit the corner having found nothing, so I began to move in the direction from which I had just come.  Again I found the corner and still no hole.  “What in hell?” I thought.

“Exactly, my pet,” a voice said.  He sounded like every evil villain sounded in the cartoons.  He even laughed that maniacal wahaha that made my skin crawl and the hair on my head stand up.

“Wh- wh- who are you?”

“I am the prince of this domain,” he said.

“What domain?”

“I thought you had figured it out, but I guess humans are really too stupid to put two and two together in this age of technology.  You need a calculator to add, a computer to write and even a GPS to tell you where to go.”

“Yes, but where am I?  I don’t have my MapQuest handy.”

The man let out another maniacal laugh.  “You do have the ability to make me laugh though, so I will excuse your laziness.”

I thought back to what I had been thinking when the voice interrupted my thoughts.  “Hell!” I shouted.

“Correct.”

“I am in hell, but I don’t belong here.”

“That’s what they all say,” the voice said.

“But I haven’t died.”

“You must be dead or you wouldn’t be here.  No one can find their way into Hell without having 
died.”

I thought for a moment about what I had been doing right before I found the hole in the wall.  I was certain that I hadn’t fallen, not anything that would have caused my early demise.  “No, I am certain I did not die.  I just found a hole in the wall.”

“Beelzebub,” Satan screamed.

“Yes, O’ Mighty Prince?” a voice answered.  It was just as frightening as Satan’s, though it sounded a bit whinier.

“Did you let the riff-raff in again?”

“Only one sire.”  The room seemed to shake as he said this. 

“Oh, quit your quivering.  This mortal amuses me, but we have got to return him, until his time,” Satan said.

“Yes, O’ Mighty Prince,” Beelzebub said.

As, he finished a light appeared in the wall.  The opening…  I ran for it and was out into the real world in a flash.  As I left, I vowed that I would change my ways.  I would serve God and spread the word.  There was no way; I would ever go back there again.

“Will you accept me as your faithful servant, God?” I asked.
The sun got brighter for just a second.  If I had blinked I might have missed it.  I guess God was okay with me spreading the word.  I felt as if a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.  


Please remember that this story is copyrighted by me, so don't reprint it.  I will be putting a book together with my flash fiction in it.  Also, I have Flashes From My Mind and More Flashes From My Mind available on Amazon.  More Flashes From My Mind is available on Kindle for $2.99.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

New Year Resolution

Let's start the new year off right.  My resolution is to write daily, which I know I can do, because I managed to do it in February.  I can carry my computer with me to appointments and write-ins.  I forgot it last Thursday. :( I have my tablet with me at all times, so I can jot down thoughts or begin a story.  So, there is no excuse for not writing something everyday.

To this end, I will be posting a flash fiction story as I get them written, but fair warning I will be taking the old off as soon as I post the new.

I will begin tomorrow even though I have one written today.

Don't forget my photography debut on Friday from 6-9 PM at the Masonic Temple Building, suite 312, I will, also, be reading along with other Y-City Writers, I hope.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

My Photography Debut



DBSA (Depression & Bipolar Support Alliance) of Zanesville and Muskingum County are teaming up with Power Source and Solutions (Certified Peer Support Services) to sponsor artists during Zanesville's First Friday Art Walk!

FEATURED ARTISTS:

JAYME HITCHCOCK: Jayme is in ...the process of becoming one of the most well-known and beloved artists in the Zanesville community. Her painting techniques allow her to be prolific and unique.

RITA SMITH: Rita is a local author and photographer. Her prints weave together light, shadow and texture. Rita's work evokes clarity and freshness of expressive imagery.

ALSO:

OPEN READING: Some of the Y-City Writers will be present to lead an open reading forum. All are welcome to participate. Bring any piece of writing you have created such as poetry, fiction, non-fiction, short stories or flash fiction. Feel free to just stop in to listen, as well!

* 50-50 Drawing!
** Special Prize Drawings!
*** Candy Bar Sale
**** Drinks and refreshments available

FOR MORE INFORMATION: call 740-891-4666 (Area code must be dialed from everywhere!)

Saturday, December 3, 2011

T.G.I.O. /Do you want to do it again?

As most of you know November was National Novel Writing Month, where millions of writers took up the gauntlet to write 50,000 words in one month.  Many succeeded, some even surpassed that goal.  I managed to eke out the last 5000 words of my story on November 30.

It has been a trying month for me.  My husband has been really ill and now they are trying to stop the progression of the disease, so tons of hospital and doctor visits are in our future.  Still, I reached my goal.  The story is not completed and Essie is screaming at me to put my fingers to the keyboard once again, so she can finish telling her story.

The question is-- Do I want to do it again?
The answer is-- Yes, with a big fat yes.

Many people I know have expressed an interest in doing a writing event in January.  This is usually a good month to stay at home.  So, January will be a good month to write another novel or to finish novels in progress. Anyone game for 31 days of writing?

In the meantime, I will continue writing and scheduling write-ins.  I may have to work around an ever changing schedule of doctors appointments and hospital visits.  Through out this time, I will carry my little pink computer and my Kindle Fire, so I can write while I wait for my husbands chemo sessions or blood transfusion to finish (a couple of hours of each.)

So, let's keep writing!  And if you want to try 31 days of writing, please contact me.  We won't have anything fancy, but we'll have a facebook page to post our daily word counts.  If I were more of a computer geek, I'd create the graphs and word count like the fabulous staff of NaNoWriMo.

For those of you, who don't want to participate in another month of writing like demons, I'll see you next year for NaNoWriMo, where I hope to continue to be Zanesville's Municipal Liaison.

Good Writing!

Rita

Thursday, November 3, 2011

HERE I GO AGAIN

At the risk of sounding like a Whitesnake song, Here I go again trying to find that perfect ending.  Though as I embark on this journey with millions of other writers who are attempting to write 50,000 words in one month for National Novel Writing Month or NaNoWriMo, I begin to understand that the ending is not the part that is in question.  It is the middle in all its glory that is necessary to achieve my goal of finding that perfect ending.  

How does a flash fiction writer go about writing a novel?  Simple you forget all the rules you have learned and begin to put back in the gestures.  Every sigh, laugh, scream counts when writing a novel.  The five senses come in real handy when you are writing longer pieces of work, just as they can make shorter works shine.  

Backstory helps in a novel, though you don't need to give it all at once and certainly not in the beginning.  Make your main character likable, before everything begins to go south for him or her.  

Try to pace yourself or you'll find your story ending well before its time.  I know this is my biggest problem.  I want to jump to the action scenes which lead directly to the ending.  Most novels are 75,000 words + and we are only trying to accomplish 50,000 this month.  

So, as all of us NaNoWriMo'rs embark on this fantastic journey into many worlds created in our own minds, wish us luck that we find our perfect endings, and middles and while we're at it beginnings.